Self hatred (internal torment) – a poem by Stuart Crossley – All Poetry–internal-torment—by-Stuart-Crossley


… I wrote a letter which made no sense, so I wrote it again. I found that if I wrote my feelings ‘pon the page, I would find some form of solace. But alas I could find none, so what I thought I found was incorrect. Far across the ‘ ocean ‘, the girl, for whom I have confused feelings, resides. Does She (I adore her) ever think of me?   

‘… The Sun and the Moon collide…’
‘why do you  stop, my friend?’ – His companion asked.
‘I do not have the words, my friend.’
‘Nonsense! All your work is filled with passion and is so heartfelt.’
‘That is the point, it is all directed, guided should I say, by my own feelings.’
‘Have you thought about using your feelings to ‘ veiw ‘ the world, anyone else’s point of view, ect, ect?
‘ You’re very  wise, my friend, thankyou. ‘
‘ You’re welcome, my friend. ‘

I hid amongst the stars, and yet I could see no light. The surface of where I found myself had no substance. An accident was what I discovered. 

The present day finds me no closer to understanding life. There are many ideas, I grant you that…

…I trailed off on purpose (but of course you knew that) – The short version, no matter what anyone believes, as long as it harms none, is worthy of equal respect. 

‘…To elucidate is so to realise feelings.’
That was all they said,but that was simply not clear enough.By that I do mean something is missing,it would seem I have to (or any other reader has to do so) fill in the ‘gaps’ to mine/our satisfaction.
                Eluminate would be more my personal choice of word for that statement.But,on reflection,I am not so sure now,something is still missing.What about ‘To elucidate emotions is so as to realise the depth of one’s feelings.’ What do you think? The point I (in a roundabout way)I am driving at,is that every single individual views that sentence (or any for that matter)in their own way.

The matter mentioned of above does not necessarily have to be taken as literal of course. It could therefore, using that principle, be applied to any subject that you wish, think about that if you will, the possibilities are as endless as your imagination will allow. Thankyou for taking the time to read this.