Share My Notes

I awoke.i feel no remorse,i should correct that ,such sorrow is within my grasp…

…i trailed off,call it a bad connection,if you will,I doubt there is anymore to say…

…The phone rings,I am in the office! -I drifted off,or wherever I go,again.
‘Are you with us today,man?’
Everyone laughs at me,as usual, “like they’d understand,anyway.”
He,my supervisor continues.-‘Just thought I should bother you,please forgive me,but maybe ,as my employee,you should consider doing some FUCKING WORK!!!’
As I expected,all my colleagues burst out laughing.

At the end of the day I always feel so exhausted,no one knows about my problem,fuck, I don’t even know what is wrong ,maybe I will wake and all of this will be over,but I strongly doubt it…

…I am at my apartment now,I,numbly go up the stairs,only silence greets me,as I walked down the corridor to my door

I unlock the door,I step inside where I live,I close the door. -I am here:alone,dejected,hated…

…As I dispassionately tear my arms open,I find myself thinking randomly “I guess I am not going to work tomorrow…”

Authors Notes:A simple tale of life,possibly,I prefer to think this is how this tale ends…


Share My Notes

…We find our ‘Narcissus’,alone, in want of a better word,for they were not so,Nature did comfort them ,yet,they in the midst of their self -indulgent arrogance refused to even acknowledge this fact.

As far as they could see,all there was,was them, the world (and all it’s occupants) must obey all that they desired,(for after all,they were perfect).

‘I do see in my line of vision,that I am incomplete,so I must alter this situation, after all,I am the Prince,so this should be easy.’

The young Prince began his journey,unaware of the realities of life-as we shall see! But,please read on…

The Prince,after leaving the castle walls,felt a little unsure,but ‘I am the Prince,what could possibly go wrong?’

-How little did he know of the ways of the world!

-He found himself,by a lake,(after many hours of walking)

“Whatever am I to do?”-His rational mind ‘said’.
“I am not to worry,for I am the Prince”-He thought as he came across a group of vagrants,living in his land.

‘I say,friend,could you spare a meal for a fellow traveller?’

They simply laughed.

‘You are the Prince,are you not?Just playacting at this life,when,if the truth be told you could return to your castle whenever you want.’

‘I am sir,but I assure you,I mean the best for all people…’

They laughed more,before they moved on ,without even replying.

The Prince was hurt(for the first time) -Yet he KNEW he was in the right.

He set himself down on stone by the waters edge.

‘I suppose when night falls you’ll return to your castle,where the fire is warm,while we huddle ’round a campfire?’

‘I shall do no such thing,I shall live as others do in my realm.’- said the Prince defiantly.

‘Right you are sir.’-The traveller said with a chuckle(under his breath).
As night fell,there was a chill in the air,a sense of complete loneliness,that which he had never felt before..

.. Sounds filled the woodland,at first ,when the Prince had left the castle,he remembered how arrogant he had been,thinking that everything would be fine,as he was the Prince.

Now he realized (though he was too proud to openly admit it) ,how wrong he was ,for the first time he looked into himself…

…He was terrified ‘Is this really how people live? While I am in such a luxurious position?’

-He said to no one in particular,maybe,he mused ,it was his way of coping with the fear..

…Footsteps were upon him!-‘What am I to do!’

‘You could always come to our camp for the night ,it be warm round the fire,sir’ -A voice whispered in the darkness.

The Prince returned to who he pretended to be …
‘…Who are you speaking to little girl?Do you realize it is I ,the Prince?-I bet you feel very honoured now.’

‘I can’t say I know you sir,but,as I said,you can stay at our camp for the night.’

‘Little,innocent girl! Whoever is in charge made it quite obvious I was not welcome.’

‘Well the offers there sir.’

‘I already told you…’ 
But she was already gone.
…The Prince set off along the trail he thought was the direction the girl went…

…Quickly he became lost,along the way he came accross an old woman sitting quietly ,by herself ,on the forest floor.

‘I say ,old woman,why are you sitting there on your own,on the forest floor,do you not wish to have any comfort?’

‘I am old now,and do not wish for any comfort for myself,there is one thing I wish for though.’

‘Which is what?’-“For some strange reason,I know not why,I am more than a little curious now .”

‘I wish for the best life my Daughter can possibly have,I am a ,let’s say I am part of this forest,and I have seen many things…’

‘Do you mean ‘things’ as in aspects of life?’

The old woman did not answer the question ,as if the words had never been spoken she stated :

‘My Daughter shall be fit to marry some day,she is happy with her life at the camp near here,but I saw it in runes….’

‘What did you see?’

‘The ‘page’ was torn,so I could not see,I am sorry…’

‘It’s not that bad…’

-All became blurry,misty,of a sudden-

When all became clear,there was no one there!

Our young Prince left in a a state of bewilderment!

…As they travelled on(they did not know where they were going ,they simply ‘followed their nose’,as it were.)

A camp they did find themselves in,many travellers were around the fire,a pot did they boil,meat cooked with herbs did fill the air!

‘What a feast I do see before my eyes,more evidence of how these lowly people share willingly with each other the little that they have.’

‘You speak true words,sir ,why not warm yourself by the fire?’ -The girl he saw earlier said.He was perplexed as to how he did not hear her arrival…

…Yet when he looked again she had gone!

‘Just like the old woman,the girl has vanished before my eyes!’

‘What are you talking about man?’-One of the villagers said.

‘If I am welcome,can I please at least warm myself by your fire?’

‘Of course you can,do you know why I di’nt laugh?’

‘I must confess,I do not,I am a Prince,but I wish to empart humility to yourselves for the smallest  of kindnesses you may see fit to offer me.’

‘That is exactly why you are welcome,you are a more than a Prince ,in my opinion,for saying such things.’

After an hour or so,when the feast had been shared by all,out of the corner of his eye our Prince sees the young girl he saw earlier…

…He followed as she disappeared into the surrounding woodland…

…When at last he was able to speak to her(as she had now stopped by a clearing)

He was confused,confused for some reason why she had chosen that point to stop

Still this fact perplexed him,so he had to ask 

‘I say why do you not go into the clearing,the light of the moon is said to cast a beautiful scene ,one they say is truly breath taking.’

‘I cannot,the light is too beautiful for me to step into.’

‘Why do you say such things?what does your Mother have to say about such things?'(why did I say the last part )-He thought to himself. 

‘I choose not to,I guess sir,I love my Mother,she owns the water,I think sir,I just do not feel worthy.’

‘That is very good that you feel that way,in as so far as respect goes,but surely you deserve to have more respect for yourself.’

‘Thankyou kindly,sir ,but if you clearly do not know the power of the waters that my Mother owns-see for yourself…’

He walked on further,and cleared the braken in front of him,as he found himself in such a thick array of branches…

…It was almost as though the woodland itself were trying to keep people out!

…As the ,now becoming wise to the world,Prince ventured into the clearing,such an overwhelming feeling overcame him!

“Where do I find myself?I am so honoured to see this scene.”

As he looked at the way the Moon glimered on the pools surface,a feeling of such joy was within him…

…Closing his eyes for moment,he understood true beauty at that moment

Yet no words could be found to express the feeling!

He opened his eyes again,only the scene was even more beautiful,powerful and captivating than before!

‘With every second that passes,it seems I see more beauty in Nature.’

As he looked into the pool,he became more aware of everything around him

From the branches and twigs around the edge,to the leaves on the forest floor

Fauna and flora were all around!

The trees ,the animals-squirrels in the undergrowth,birds,crickets chirping-the sounds of the night were so enchanting!

“For some reason,I am drawn back to the pool,almost as though I cannot resist!

What forces drive me in such a way?”

As he peered into the pool,aside from being struck speechless by its beauty,his vision became that which he could not explain…

…It was as though he had none! -Sheer darkness became the entirety of sight!

When his vision cleared,a stunning young woman was in front of him!

‘Have I disturbed this place by my presence?,please forgive me if so,I wish to cause no wrong.’

‘You have honoured me by saying so,you are no longer just a Prince,I see.’

‘I do not understand fair Lady of the water.’

‘Ah ,sweet Prince,you know and understand far more than you think.’

With that She was gone.’Who was that?’-He wondered aloud.

He had stood there for hours,perhaps{?} –

He made his way back through the clearing,that lead to the path,which in turn took him to face the thick undergrowth…

…It was much darker now,yet the light reflected by the pool showed him the way ,guided him almost…

The trees gave way much more freely than it appeared they would

-They almost bowed ,out of respect?-He found himself musing.

In a daze,he headed back towards the camp,he knew not what to think (or even feel) 

In regards to the events of that day,he simply was not prepared for what followed…

‘We have not seen ye Prince in a while ,ye be fairin’ all good?’

‘I am quite well thankyou,it suddenly seems clear,yet I do not comprehend.’

‘You do babble on ‘right enough,we is simple folk ,so just spit it out Man.’

‘The young girl suggested I come here,I met her Grandmother{?} on the way

her Daughter (perhaps) ,who is now Lady of the Water a minute ago..

…Do you think this was meant to happen?’ – He said,as though he were speaking to no one

None of the villagers could tell who he was addressing his word to

A silence gripped the whole clan,a hushed silence..

…The main speaker of the group spoke up:

‘You talk of tales of myth from long ago,which be told ’round the campfire

by our clan,how could know these things being a Prince? Do these tales

get told at your Palace?Does someone from our clan tell them?’

-All the villagers looked horrified at the prospect!

‘I merely ‘knew’ things before ,now I really know.I see that now.’

With that he walked away from the speechless villagers

past the tents and rudimentary huts

He came to a green area,”Have I walked in a circle?”

As if his question were answered just then,he saw he was back in the field

Only it was via another path he found himself there!

…The young Prince entered the field,in the distance(for it was a wide field!)

He made out shapes{?} Just tricks of the night,he told himself.

As he drew closer,he was [almost] sure he could see silhouettes now,yet of what he could not say!

…He drew closer still,and now the shapes he could see resembled people!

…When he was finally near the pool,he could see the young girl,the Old woman and the Lady of the Water,at that moment,he almost understood

‘As you might have guessed,your entire journey had a pattern,if you like,to follow ,which you did so

proving that which nature had planned for you

,you had the wisdom to follow,even though,by your own admission,

you did not understand,but now that you can see that,you are now ready

to fulfil your destiny…’ 

‘What is that,Lady of the Water?’

‘To work in accordance with nature itself,to obey all laws of what is to be.’

‘What must I do now?’- He was sure now,he was talking to a Goddess! 

-He felt so calm,he knew this was meant to be now.

‘I can tell that you will know what the meaning of what I say is

before I even say it.’

‘I do not entirely see,I do not think so anyway

but,if you would be so kind,please go on.’

‘Your eyes may ‘see’ three people(or so you think)when in fact there is one!

All of us collectively make up the three states that make up the tripartite Goddess 

in all ‘Her’ forms.’

‘Your words carry such power,Lady Goddess.’

‘Why thankyou,you have ‘met’ my innocence(the young girl),my wisdom(the old woman),mesmerized by my beauty

(the Lady of the Water),yet you did not question or judge

you only followed your heart,and in so doing grew as a person.’

‘I am honoured that you think so,my Lady.’

‘So it would seem,yours and my own journey are at an end,but…’

‘But what?’-The Prince prompted(or wished to do so),were his words inadequate?

‘It seems that the world of the future is beyond both of our depth s of understanding.’

‘But surely ,as a Goddess,you could know far more than any mortal could?’

-A very shocked state of mind he found himself in!

‘You misunderstood what I was trying to say(you are too mortal),so it is more fitting if I just show you…’

In the next instant,it seemed as though it were straight away,the other two were gone

and only the Lady of the Water remained!

Except she was now far more beautiful than she was before!

-The most adorable creation was before him,and she looked at him with such love in her eyes!

As they stepped along the path together,they were both hand in hand,

it all felt so natural!

Both of the [im]mortal lovers ended their journey in front of a portal.

‘Now is the time that you become truly immortal and understand what I was saying earlier.’

-They stood before the portal,almost nervous,what comes next?

They kissed,the most passionate kiss that had ever been ‘seen’ …

…It was a moment so pure,it seemed like time itself stood still!

Every single creature of nature paused,as if they were scared to even breath!

 That moment could not be captured in a portrait,for example ,it was far too perfect!

It was only in the blink of an eye,as they held hands,and looked into each other’s eyes…

…everything became light;the purest light ever seen!

Like the state of Nirvana(or whatever you wish),all became love!

‘I sat on this distant moon,the moon I am(it seems),
condemned to reside

I do wonder,as I sit here in silence
I view the fiery orb ,that which is before me
And yet I wonder…

…Is anything beyond the fire I do espie?
…I have heard (though I am sure it is a myth) that a water world,a paradise is on the other side,where life and love are such perfection!

-I dream so much of this waterworld,as I sit on my desolated moon planet,staring,just staring at the fiery orb beneath me,in my line of vision.’
‘From my viewpoint,I stare into the waters above me,the murk that prevents me from seeing further…

…I continue to stare,I see a rock from which I can see more,as I will be closer to the surface!

…I perch in my new viewing spot,and what do I see?
Fire? An orb perhaps?

…I stare on,and I wonder …

…What (if anything)is above?
…As they continue to stare,a sudden overwhelming feeling overcame them,they decided (rashly?)-To take (quite literally) a leap of faith.
-As they fell,a rush of freedom (?)
breathed through them.Yet there was something else…As he fell,aside from noticing for the first time,quite calmly,surprisingly,like a euphoria,the moment before death cannot be explained!
-As to what else was felt,a belief that something else was there,was it love?It is too late now,they thought,as a strange warmth ran through them.Inexplicable yet
again,the words were not forthcoming {to the conscious mind},so incredible it was that the time was available to have these thoughts!
…It is now the moment…the moment,when I disapear…
…I stare upto what I consider to be fire ,I raise myself,I wish to do so,and yet I dream {unconsciously} how am I
to go through the fire,to raise myself up to that which I do not know,I do not understand…I guess I wish for love …But how do I find it?’
-They (she?) pondered over this for a while,then…they found themself lifting! -Out of the safety did they feel approaching,yet they felt no fear! -Only a joyful feeling {of which they could not explain},did they experience,which pervaded their very
spirit!-The soul was filled in this way also(although they could not explain what this meant).
When of the two of them shall meet{as is their destiny},who can say,without doubt,what will happen,as all of us are affected by love in our own unique ways?

A picture frame,that is empty?

‘I stare into the bleak space,the nothingness
that is before my eyes

No matter how many years
no matter how long I stare:
nothing can I make out.’
‘…I stare at the mirror,and yet only my lonely reflection do I see…

…All I can ever ‘see’ is the fact I will always be alone.’

Why can you two not ‘see’ that what is in the picture,and the reflection needed in the mirror,are but images of your respective perfect loves?
Both of their consciousnesses told them so,at the same time!
‘I continue to stare(as I always do so),
into the empty picture
But wait!
such beauty is in the
portrait,I do see…’

‘I look upon the mirror,my despair
fills me so
All of a sudden ,I make out -can it be?The love that I dreamed of all this time?
As I step through the mirror (I cannot return!),all fades to darkness…’
‘…As I am suddenly aware of the fact I have stepped into the painting now(I know not how this happened!),it seems my only option is to follow the
path before me,where does it lead to,I ask?
I see a field ,or should I say I find myself in one,and I see another ,(maybe they can’t explain how they got here either!)…’
‘It becomes present in my mind,lucid,I should say,that the closer I get to (my destiny?) the more ease of which I have command of my
own train of thought.
I can,as I draw closer,make out in the distance ,someone else who has been drawn to this place? -I can only guess at the truth of this ,as I know this not as a fact,merely a guess.’
‘After many hours traveling,I find myself,in a field,It is dark now,so all I can make out of the mystery
person,is their silouette,moving towards me.’
‘All I can see now is darkness,I should rest,but,a noise and movement makes me halt my progress suddenly…’
‘I find myself face to face with another,who I may say has all the qualities of the true love that I dream
of !’
‘And now (I guess) comes the moment when we finaly speak! I ,at last know,before me is my hearts desire,all that I have yearned for.Now we prepare to converse(I am so nervous) -We are about to speak to each other…’
What happens next?

When realisation is recovered…

…When she returned to awareness (of this world)
her surroundings ,the river has been drained,but how?
– She is alone!

The mud and sands of the riverbank are bare,how ,she wonders, is she to reach the clearing above?
-Then a winding staircase she does see!

‘I guess that is my only option.’

As she reaches the winding (?)staircase the young girl does see it is carved into the very rock of the bank itself!

Shortly ,after climbing the steps,they
reach the top.Short of breath (as the journey was a longer one than they had at first anticipated!)-Yet they pressed onward,into that which they could not know.

They find themselves in a clearing now,they looked over the edge of the cliff ,for reasons they know not
…Is that what makes them do so?

-They are shocked at how far the drop is…

‘Where did the water go?’-they wonder aloud…
…’It left the river some 500 years ago.’ -A voice,that came from behind said.
The young girl turned to see where the voice came from,as it startled her.

What did she see?
-A figure,hiding,it would seem,in the shadows. ‘Why do you hide in the shadows,may I ask?’

‘I hide in the shadows for others to see the light {tho they see this not}.’
‘I am afraid I do not understand…’-She stammered.

…He,saying nothing,pointed to a darkened(entrance,maybe?)…

…He added(almost as an afterthought!)’When you complete your journey,you will know whose it was..’
‘I do not know what you mean…’

-She was alone!

-Is this in some way symbolic?-She mused upon that fact,in a dazed state.

…The girl carried on walking (she knew not where she was!)
-She could see nothing,in any direction!

…As the young girl came back to what she would term as her ‘normal’ level of perception of the world,she said aloud ‘Is that a mirror I see before me?

In an odd way,the way that the shadow is cast by the mirror,on the
wall behind it,reminds me of the man I spoke with earlier,though,I must confess,could not give an accurate description{As he was hiding in the shadows}.’

-When the girl approached the mirror,she saw nothing but an ordinary shadow!

It had the shape she ‘saw’ because of
the fact that the mirror was slightly angled.

When she looked into the mirror itself,however,all she could see was a reflection of herself

{as you would expect,when one looks into a mirror!},
except…this was different,somehow..
…She could not put a name to what it was,yet something was definately different…
The ‘reflection’ at any point is our own,but in this case the girl ‘saw’ her future ‘shadow’.The image she saw at the end of this tale,when she looked into the mirror was of who she ‘changed’ into by her ‘journey'(was it dream,awake or
Further note:The aforementioned ‘journey’ can be in numerous timescales(a few hours,a day,ect.) ,it can be used to refer to life (and age also),but,after all,is everyone the same person they were at the begining of the day,that they are at night?


Untitled (?)

…He was perplexed,but wishing to understand ,he decided -If I do not ask,I shall not find out.

-Why,pardon me if this seems to have an obvious answer,why do you talk thus?
-I do not mind explaining at all,I am part of your phyche,as I shall be part of the next travelers,though their path
to finding me is different in all cases.
He was taken aback,humbled,and grateful ,to…? -Who is this before me?This mysterious force cannot be human,but they are part of all humans?-I am confused-although in a strange way,this all makes sense.
– You seem concerned,my friend.-‘She’ prompted him to speak his worries.
-If-If you are,as you say,part of all
who travel along their own path,are you ,I feel awkward in saying this,human?-Forgive me for asking this,I mean no offence.-He added as an afterthought.
-No offence is taken,I assure you.In answer to the question you wish to know the answer to,I am subconsciousness or consciousness depending on whether one is ‘awake’ or ‘asleep’.
-What I thought was clear,is now clouded by the depths of my mind.In other words,I do not seem to be able to be able to understand,although,I think I do…
-There you go!To think about understanding something,means you are on the way to finding another way to solve the problem!

…When two worlds colide..

…’Again I dreamt (in my head),what it could feel like to touch,to feel something…’-Our first ‘speaker said.
…’What is in my presence?’ -She questioned…
….Just as this story was starting,She thought ‘just another ghost/mortal love story,probably very good,a tad unoriginal for me though.’
She decided to go for a walk,by the
sea ‘and so to dream’ she found herself saying -it dawned on her it was nearly midnight! Where had the time gone?She had only just got here!
She could see something in the water, was it a glowing orb? she could not decide, so she moved closer…
…She had a sudden thought that this light (that she was now in),could have transfixed her ,so she lost track of time!
-A crazy notion?Maybye.
The thought she had now was an awareness that she was enshrouded by light!
Where would light take her if she were to take this path?Could she even go back?-For that matter could she go forward?What had she to lose,by going with the flow,as it were?After all,there must be a reason for this to happen,like everything has
it’s place in life,creation she corrected herself…
…The light was becoming stronger now,brighter….

….She suddenly remembered ,as if she were back in that phase in her life,when she last knew what it felt like to be in love.Her and her lover were walking hand in hand through the fields,lavender and rolling
meadows ,meadows as far as the eye could see.Much like their love {which needless to say seems without bounds!}.
They sat on the grass ,holding hands,both unable to beleive how perfect their love for each other was.He told he loved her and kissed her deeply,drawing her closer,she gasped with delight She was so in love!
…After they had laid in each others arms for what could only be described as an eternity of bliss,they decided to take the scenic route home ,along a rural,quiet country lane.
Nothing was coming on either side.At first,out of habit,they found themselves walking on the edge of fields,through the grass.-It became
too dense after a while,so they [eventualy]strayed into the middle of the road…
….All of a sudden he showered her with kisses,soft to start with then deeper,more passionately he kissed her.They carressed each other,so lovingly,even the coldest of hearts would be melted!The sight of two lovers made for each other was sheer perfection!
…That was just a memory,why did her mind have to haunt her so?Her lover was now dead…
…It was so fresh in her mind,why was there no escape?
-They were both hit by a car as they kissed and held each other in the lane…

…She was dazed at first,her lover
was still.She called to him.No response.He was alright,wasn’t he?As she came closer ,she knew,she knew he was dead.After she saw his lifeless face,his blue lips,everything was a blur.She held him and cried unconsolably.
She became aware of someone watching her.A young boy,from the local farm as it happens,had heard the crash and went to see what
happened, he told her…
…She could barely hear what he was saying.The hit and run driver was long gone,despite her rage,she felt such pity for the young boy,to see a scene of death so early in life.His eyes so innocent,his quivering lip,unending did he cry.She found herself crying too -all of a sudden the boy seemed as if in awe!
She was incredulous!After the
sympathy she had felt for him-after losing her lover to the hands of death too! -She could not see the boy anymore!Was the Sun too bright(?) She turned around -She could not see her lover! -White light glowed in front of her…!

…She was stunned for a moment ,where was she?
Of course,she was back in the
present.Yet that memory made her realise she had not cried since discovering her lover dead! She could not stop the tears falling’like a waterfall that no one sees’ -She thought.Such loneliness ,an empty void, had died in her when her love left this life.
She looked at the orb behind her.She did not want to go back to her lonley life…
…She looked in front of her,was her sight playing tricks on her? No ,she was right the first time.The light was fading!
…The light faded into darkness,by darkness ,I mean nothingness.
She found herself in a darkened allyway(?)She had ‘seen’ this place before.In the nightmares of where her lover was trapped since he died.That of course was just her thoughts.She
crumpled,almost fell against a wall,and then loneliness washing over her,broke into another wave of tears.
-She can hear footsteps(?),as she looks up,she can see a silhouette approaching! She feels uncomfortable,anxious even.
they must have been standing where she appeared!Why didn’t she see them?
As they draw closer,they can see they are male.Nervous now,they wonder if this Man,with a hood(?)has seen them.They are very close now,she sits very still…
…He stops by her ,and turns he asks -why is that someone else is here,have you died too? Unable to answer such a weird question,yet she did think she knew that voice,could it be true?
-Is th-th-that you my love?
He was shocked beyond all shock,he found himself saying -It is I my love,yet how,I do wonder why have we ,after all this time, been drawn together?
-I know not ,please hold me,this might not last.
-like Swan Lake?
-Just hold me please.
They kissed ,as they both were
encased in light and then [confused]they found themselves on the beach,by the sea,holding hands…
…They kissed and became light…
Two lovers transcended death,proving true love can be contained by no barriers…
…This could be a metaphor,an allegory,if you like,of the ‘symbolic way our two lovers,became the light
,to pave the way for all lovers (metaphorically) to tread the path that proves that love can never fail.
No matter how dark it may seem,love will always find a way.I hope you liked this ;)!

-Prologue(of the begining[cont..])-
…As they sat there,for what seemed an unending length of time ,a stage of existence,a point in their life of no meaning…’Is this what the end feels like?’ -they thought to themself -‘Am I to be in this state for eternity? I must confess,I have no concept of the true meaning of what eternity feels like(in actuality)- looked on in that way,it is an almost meaningless
…’My thoughts may seem pointless,but how can one grasp[truely]a concept if no consideration is employed?’
…They struggled with grasping facts,which ,I may add ,seemed to have no meaning now,nothing was tangible in this ‘unreal’ world…

…Sometime later,many hours had
passed -they looked at at floor(in a way that misery causes us all to do so),and saw a line of stones ,which grew more in number as the eye reached the end -like an arrow?-they thought- an arrow was engraved on the centre of the wall in front of them,pointing forwards,into the darkness ,the darkness that could not be seen past…
…They travelled on,until -what could
their eyes percieve through the darkness?-‘A corridor,a corridor,I do see before me, should I go on,yet is that not a question,a question of which I already know the answer? -So I must proceed! For my curiosity compells me to do so!’
They press on into the unknown,the darkness,that of which they are unsure…
…As they travel on through the
corridor,they pass that which they cannot quite make out,before they are close enough to view what is before them{in their mind,many options pass before their ‘eyes’},could they see a sculpture,a carving or a painting? Or are they ,upon further observation,to discover what it is; that which lies before their eyes?
…A curious ornately carved clock
they do see,with three faces! All of which display three seperate times! ‘These different ‘clocks’ are part of the same whole,does this mean something?’ -They pondered upon this ,as they walked to the end of this journey (?) -No ! -They have only reached the end of the corridor…
…Another arrow is carved into the stone,in a way this makes them think(for some reason )of blood ties
and the way, in tradition,the runic stave is so carved.
This time the arrow ‘instructs’ the onlooker to look down,to what ,you may ask? -More darkness perhaps?
No ,I say,a staircase,one that seems unending,also a feeling of dread and despair,yet knowing [somehow] that an answer is to be learned,they decend the stairwell into the very heart of the rock itself…
… They find themself,suddenly traversing over to the stairwell,with each tread of every step,giving a feeling,they know not how,of steadfastness and sureity.
They work their way deeper into the catacomb of the heart of all mystery.’This may be a confusing journey’- they tell themself – ‘But I have to see it to be completed,so that
I may attain the knowledge to bring me further… ….by which I mean,to help further the knowledge of humankind,for the good of all.’

They reach the end of the stairwell,they stand on solid ground…
..A sense of achievement ,a gut feeling,if you like,that everything shall soon become much clearer…
…As they are lost by their own thoughts,a monk(?)enters the room,they begin carving on a stone tablet… The words they cannot make out..The monk hears something(perhaps?)They seem very distracted..They leave as silently and quickly as they arrived…

…A man enters the room – ‘they seem
very familiar’ -our progenitor thinks,as they watch the scene before them,in the room.

A stream of thought goes through their mind ,as they try to work out who this figure before them is. Suddenly they speak their thoughts aloud,whispering to start with : ‘I know that I know who this is before me,so should I not be able to decide
when it is right for me to know such knowledge? I would like to think that is true..’

…The man says (for now they know the gender for a fact as they spoke) ‘I die without knowing a thing’ -‘you and me both,my friend’ – They agree . As an afterthought,a comment on life -‘ Well maybye ,it is time,to fucking wake up.’
Then he just smiled,on whim?’Now I think I know what the tripartite clock means,in relation to this tale.This tale that has already been told by three different characters from three different times,past,present,and future.’
‘Am I correct in what I say?’ -He says to himself.-‘But does not my rational,logical side ‘answer’ my questions in a dispassionate way,if I
choose to listen…? Should somehow a ‘note’ be added or carved;marked in some way to keep a record of this thought process,and maybye the truth may be preserved for all time- although,many years from now the same conclusion may or may not be reached…’
…As they thought,they contemplated this fact,they realised the truth of what they already ‘knew’ { note:this is
in reference to a fact that has already been discovered.}
All of a sudden,as on a whim,on a whim,I should say,they approach the stone tablet[out of curiosity?]They are shocked! Nothing has been written!-Should they carve? The ‘words’ in their heart ‘present’ themselves,as what is carved flows from from the very spirit thus {I do
mean these words were spoken} – ‘Now we embrace the darkness,as the cold embraces the loneliness of the human soul.It does not feel,therefore,like there will be an end to this moment of hopelessness…!’

…If {he was suddenly aware of}the whole of this story tells the entire tale (not just what is percieved at first glance),the first chapter,if you
like,then surely to discover the part each of our three progenitors plays paves the way for the second chapter.
To understand the begining,they had to go through a voyage of discovery{from the main characters perspective}- Yet was that their past self that ‘told’ the story?They could not decide for definate{although that seems highly plausible}.
The ‘monk’ {for they did not know this
for a fact,could be their future self(?) -That seems to be in question,as they do not know the truth of that fact(they are in the present after all).
…So much to ponder on,they thought.’I may not come to realise this tale fully until the end of the ‘book’ (their entire lifespan).They sat in silence for a while,trying to be part of the stillness -Wait a minute ,I am sure I know what it means!
-The forces of nature provides us with the ‘tools’ that lead us to unlock our ‘hidden’ potential…!

-Prolougue(of the begining) –

Upon the tablet in front of them,it is written-‘Now we embrace the darkness, as the cold embraces the loneliness of the broken soul .It does not feel ,therefore,like there will be an end to to moment of hopelessness…!’

‘I die without knowing a thing’ -He says- ‘Well maybye, it is time to fucking wake up !!’ – Says a voice from somewhere {he knows not
where it comes from…}
-He does not know how to respond-
‘..So it is time’ -he says -‘to wake the fuck up?’ -He speaks aloud that which the voice tells him to do so,{as a question(?)}but he does not know why this is happening. – ‘why does this have to happen now? Has my being alone with my thoughts for all this time driven me insane? ‘
…A new beginning is awaiting to be
realized,should they,they think,step ‘outside the box’,as it were,for the first time?
– Chapter 1(in prose) –
On this morning(like any other),they waited for the day to begin.-Then ,as the Sun reached its full height(they knew life {as they knew it}was not going to remain so!
{as the day begun,I do mean}.
They[somehow] crossed into a plain,open courtyard {they know not how they got there.
As their eyes adjusted to the light(it was dark now!But how?)
A statue,in an unexplainable way,seemed to draw them onward,to the pond in the centre of the courtyard.-As they look further,deeper,a single carving(with lettering upon it?)is in the water.
They stand for a while,unsure if they should read it,if they can(all they have to do is look closer…).

…Still do they remain in front of the pool,they peer at the tablet at last -writing is upon it!

…It is written upon it(as they overcome their fear to view it!)-‘step
into the pool to begin the journey,that shall set you free…
…Unsure at first,they venture(timidly?) into the water,they feel freedom as they never have known!
They ‘awake’ (is that the correct word?) for the first time !
Stunned are they ,they thought they could ‘see’ the world ,yet now they know they could not !
An unususal situation -a new beginning(?) Where do I find myself now?
‘Does not the world carry on as I know it? -Why do I reapeat myself?why does no one answer?

…After endless questions ,which have no answer,I may add,he screams at the nothingness ‘FUCK!!’
A meaningless comment,you may say,but the wrath that is within,the seething rage-that,in short,is what brings these feelings out…
~(to be continued)~